“If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is because everything would be what it isn’t. And contrary-wise; what it is it wouldn’t be, and what it wouldn’t be, it would. You see?”
What I’ve realized recently is that nothing can be rushed. It might eventually fall under that catagory of Things I’m Learning at Twenty Five, but for now, it doesn’t.
I am not looking for my happiness in anyone but myself, because that was my biggest mistake in the beginning. My career goals are the driving force right now, followed by everything else that I’ve set out to do for my life. It might be lonely at times, but I am slowly figuring out that I had the answers all along, and I was too afraid to ask the right questions. People are always afraid to ask themselves those questions.
Nothing can be rushed. Even that little piece of knowledge.
Can you list some of those questions?
-What is it that makes ME whole? Is it God, another person, a certain book?
-What kind of person am I really?? Too kind? Naive? Vengeful? Depressed?
-How can I truly be better for myself?
-What do I (honestly) want for my life? Marriage? Career? A family? All of the above?
-How can I get there? Am I on the right path?
I know, I’m a self help book for SURE. But these are questions I have honestly had to ask myself in the past year or so. I let myself become so consumed with DETAILS and moments in time, and I forgot the big picture. People search and search for their role in life, and I just started realizing that our role is to discover who we really are…and be that.
ugh. I know that sounds so silly and Dr. Phil. I’ve been spending a lot of time meditating though:) Very rewarding.