This will be an even more lame update, but whatever.
I have applied for unemployment for the first time in my life, and I should be able to claim it for next week. It’s nothing big, but it will help me save for moving, and that’s all I really need. I am really thankful for my ability to save money, and spend only what I need, because it’s really “paying off” right now.
I had a phone interview last week for a really cool job, and now I have an in person interview for the same job on Monday. I am going all out for it, and just counting on things to happen the way they’re meant to. I am not ashamed that I no longer work at Voda, because selling myself short of what I am capable of is not something I’m okay with. Yeah, I don’t have a job right now, but I am also not running to the store to pick up someone’s organic unscented deodorant, or calling wonderful restaurants to complain that my boss’s salad was “slightly wilted” and it’s “unacceptable”.
This too shall pass.
Last weekend we ended up at Ozzie’s (again), and like before, I was pretty uncomfortable. It reminds me of a strip mall sports bar in the middle of Seattle, and an all too familiar reminder of my early years in Washington. To make matters more uncomfortable, I went upstairs to “see what’s up there”, because I’d never really looked around. Seeing someone I haven’t seen in about two years, and forcing an awkward conversation because we “kind of” know each other, it was just too much. I am an awkward person sometimes, but I am also extremely personable and I genuinely like people. So knowing that he was doing the same thing I was, forcing it, made me a little sad. I don’t fit into that environment, but I am completely okay with that.
I think the right thing for me to do right now, is to embrace spring. To embrace the new season, and clean out the little leftovers in my life that aren’t doing anything for me. Luckily, I have so much positive energy swirling around me (even now), that the bad doesn’t seem so…bad.
This too shall pass.