I am about to go all broken record here, on this blog, and I am giving you fair warning. Get out now, because if you are someone who knows me, you’ll have heard all this (mostly) before.

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If you’re still reading, let me just explain that I know I’ve said all this before. However, it’s clearly something I am still working out with myself, and even though I know I have an audience sometimes, I don’t really care. Life is weird, man.

Today is my last day at my current job, and I am definitely pretty bummed about it. I actually really like it here, and if I had to compare all the jobs I’ve had, this one definitely comes out on top. So, why would I have a new job if I like my current one so much? This is where it gets hard to explain, because part of me doesn’t even know, and part of me knows all too well.

I like change. I am actually addicted to not sitting still, and I crave learning so badly. I want more, and not just sometimes, but all the time. I refuse to believe that I can’t have it all, the happiness, the paycheck, the friends, the benefits (health). I refuse to believe that I have to sacrifice one thing for another, and so I continue to search, even when I feel like I could be content if I just sat still and tried. Call it motivation, call it drive, call it being a total flake at life. There is no accurate term for it, and sometimes that bothers me, and sometimes I really don’t care.

I found a new job that suits me, and my skills, but a part of me is already wondering. I have to learn to relax, stop worrying, and just let my restlessness go. A new job isn’t going to fix my problem, though it might soothe it for awhile, like aloe or something. I am excited about Monday, and even though it means saying goodbye to something that’s been good, there is definitely something to be said about change. I don’t know what kind of person that makes me.

Maybe it makes me the kind of person who values happiness above all else. It’s definitely something I had to learn to value and appreciate, but I just can’t settle until I have what I want and need out my own life.

That’s fair, right?

In the interest of “being an adult”, I am not naming my new job here. I am not tooting my own horn here, but they are a little ‘high profile’, and I don’t want to associate my ramblings here with them in any way. So, if you’re super interested please email or let’s make a coffee date. I need to catch up with people anyway:)